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Looking In ➹ [Read] ➵ Looking In By Michael Bailey ➼ – Natus-physiotherapy.co.uk David Barrows world fell apart at the age of eleven after his mother died Years of physical and emotional abuse followed, leaving him scarred in body and mind, mired in the belief that he is unlovable David Barrows world fell apart at the age of eleven after his mother died Years of physical and emotional abuse followed, leaving him scarred in body and mind, mired in the belief that he is unlovable He spends his days working in a comic shop, and his nights alone wrestling with the ghosts of his past As a Marine, Adam Duncan has sworn to protect and serve, and there is no one he is protective of than his brother and nephew When tragedy strikes, threatening the security of his family, his protective instincts kick in But how can he fight an enemy he can t see David and Adam feel the connection between them, but David has built walls around his heart that no one has bothered to break through, until Adam Adam can see what a special man David is, and is willing to do whatever it takes to break down those barriers Can he make David see he doesn t have to keep living his life Looking In.


10 thoughts on “Looking In

  1. ~✡~Dαni(ela) ♥ ♂♂ love & semi-colons~✡~ ~✡~Dαni(ela) ♥ ♂♂ love & semi-colons~✡~ says:

    If you re looking for that warm and fuzzy feeling, you ll love Looking In Despite the tragic backstory of one of the MCs, the romance itself is low on the angst, moderate on the steam, and high on the AWWWs I can t believe I m saying this, but the book was TOO sweet Adam was so nice, he felt like a caricature of the Best Boyfriend Ever I wantedof his past, not to mentionpersonality He didn t read like a Marine at all his military background was barely mentioned David had an abu If you re looking for that warm and fuzzy feeling, you ll love Looking In Despite the tragic backstory of one of the MCs, the romance itself is low on the angst, moderate on the steam, and high on the AWWWs I can t believe I m saying this, but the book was TOO sweet Adam was so nice, he felt like a caricature of the Best Boyfriend Ever I wantedof his past, not to mentionpersonality He didn t read like a Marine at all his military background was barely mentioned David had an abusive childhood and, as an adult, is lonely and withdrawn Adam kept telling David that he was strong, but I didn t see it What David excelled at was being a martyr I absolutely hate the you re better off without me so I m going to push you away bullshit, which happened here David decides he s putting Adam in danger, so WITHOUT TALKING TO ADAM, he breaks off the relationship and freezes Adam out.All the plot points didn t fully gel for me At the beginning, much is made of Adam s teenage nephew being sick, but the nephew makes a seemingly easy recovery and not muchis said about it I also hated the crazy dramatic moment at the end it was SO unnecessary Even the epilogue felt overdone I love HEAs, but not every wish has to come true And, finally, there were quite a few distracting typos this book needed a muchthorough edit I m going with a reluctant 3 stars because I do like hurt comfort stories, and Looking In is ultimately a tender romance about letting go of past hurts and learning to forgive yourself


  2. Gigi Gigi says:

    First time author hurt healing comfort goodness I absolutely LOVED this book Adam, with his calm, gentle love, is perfect book boyfriend material.Hurt healing comfort junkies who love an emotional story about a hurt and lost main character with some book boyfriend hot sex thrown in for good measure, this book is for you.A big THANK YOU to Kael for the recommendation This review is also posted at Gay Book Reviews First time author hurt healing comfort goodness I absolutely LOVED this book Adam, with his calm, gentle love, is perfect book boyfriend material.Hurt healing comfort junkies who love an emotional story about a hurt and lost main character with some book boyfriend hot sex thrown in for good measure, this book is for you.A big THANK YOU to Kael for the recommendation This review is also posted at Gay Book Reviews


  3. Tizerkane Tizerkane says:

    INFINITE STARS INFINITE I cannot believe this book is Michael Bailey s FIRST this isn t just great for a debut novel , this book is simply PHENOMENAL Full stop I have no words right now I just finished this book and just WOW


  4. Susan Susan says:

    I think my tastes have changed When I used to love cheesy books, I have noticed I find them a bit eyerolling nowadays.David and Adam first meet at the comic store David works at Adam is there to pick something for his 13 year old nephew, who is on the hospital David isn t used to feeling a connection to anyone so he is surprised he cannot stop thinking about the hunky man who visited the store.Adam just got out of the military where he served as a marine when he hears his nephew is sick Sinc I think my tastes have changed When I used to love cheesy books, I have noticed I find them a bit eyerolling nowadays.David and Adam first meet at the comic store David works at Adam is there to pick something for his 13 year old nephew, who is on the hospital David isn t used to feeling a connection to anyone so he is surprised he cannot stop thinking about the hunky man who visited the store.Adam just got out of the military where he served as a marine when he hears his nephew is sick Since Adam has always taken care of his brother when they were little, he is now ready to do so again with him and his son, when it appears his nephew has leukemia And that s why it s not really a good time to start a relationship with anyone, even though he wants to get to know the cute guy from the comic store better.But when these guys run into each other again by accident, they exchange phone numbers and end up texting each other a lot.And that s how this relationship starts First with some texting, then with some pizza, and eventually with some kisses and .But David has a lot of scars, inside and out, from years of abuse as a child And now there is someone out there who is threatening him and also Adam I thought I would love this since it had all the ingredients of a good hurt comfort story But boy was this romance cheesy I also never had the feeling the start of this relationship was very authentic It was like these guys were already in a relationship after one meeting Yes, we get told they text a lot and that they got to know each other better, but I just didn t feel it.While I liked the overall sweetness of this story it was just too much of the cheese for me to really enjoy it


  5. AGandyGirl AGandyGirl says:

    2.5 Stars This will likely be one of the most difficult reviews I have written at least in the top 3 But one I feel important to write There is absolutely no doubt that for a debut novel this one was one I wanted desperately to love And while there is undoubtedly talent to this Author, regretfully this one fell short for me He turned from me and looked down to where I still held his hand Again, he whispered, Then why am I always alone The sadness in his voice cut me to the core I didn2.5 Stars This will likely be one of the most difficult reviews I have written at least in the top 3 But one I feel important to write There is absolutely no doubt that for a debut novel this one was one I wanted desperately to love And while there is undoubtedly talent to this Author, regretfully this one fell short for me He turned from me and looked down to where I still held his hand Again, he whispered, Then why am I always alone The sadness in his voice cut me to the core I didn t want it to be there I wanted to take that pain from him, erase it, make it disappear.I let go of his hand and placed it on his cheek, gently turning him to face me again Because you were waiting for me, and just didn t know it Just as I ve been waiting for you You re not alone You ll never be alone againOr I lied when I said I had him The truth was, he had me. Beautiful writing Beautiful writing indeed So don t for a minute believe that I have any doubts as to this Author s potential It is great And yet what this Author seems to be lacking is structure and organization What this Author seems to need is a mentor who can help guide this talent on its path to greatness I want this for him because, as I said, he has what it takes to be great Now a writer I am not But I am a designer Am I a great designer No Do I need critique and the ability to bounce ideas off others Absolutely And finding this critique is likely better coming from a wide range of sources For example if I am designing a school, I need critique not only from other Architects, but teachers, students, parents, janitors, etc People to look at my design from all aspects If I have looked at my design too long, I can become blind and can many times not see what is right in front of me Plus my design can become too personal It is my baby I have poured my heart into it So it is hard to accept critique But if I am to learn and get better it is a critical part to the process of improving my art So for me, this book lacked that critique from all angles This book has the bones It has the potential And there were scenes so beautifully written that I felt the love The scene with Greg and David was absolutely my favorite The first kiss and first sexual encounter between Adam and David was beautifully captured Tender and lovely But there was way too much going on and too many holes left unfilled that at the end of the book just become frustrating for me as a reader And writing dual POV only to play some scenes from both POVs becomes repetitive, regardless of the different emotions felt Much of the internal dialogues throughout became repetitive as well to the point that I felt I was being drilled with details like I had a memory issue Lucas This character was completely unnecessary as was this storyline We missed all interactions between him and Adam regarding the comic books We lacked their connection, something I am sure could have been beautiful And I am not a doctor nor do I have children with leukemia, but can a child begin treatment and within 2 months be in remission And where the hell was this boy s mother Just many doors opened for this storyline that wrapped up in a single sentence at 95% or had holes left unfilled Adam A veteran with 4 tours of duty in Afghanistan, and yet other than knowing this and him having a brother he loves, I really know very little about him A tattoo of such beauty is mentioned early on and yet we never got any details as to the meaning behind it He is a protective and loving person and yet we got very few heart to heart moments between him and his brother and nephew Many moments lost here to help show the heart of this man Greg I loved this character to pieces and as I stated above the exchange between him and David was perfect Yet to learn that this man has a brother that has he never tried to track down Ugh Really Perhaps this opened a door to a future novel and Michael will take on this challenge next I can only hope David s Dad This storyline became frustrating for me as a reader We knew early on that this man s release from prison was going to take an emotional toll on David That he feared this man and his past And yet instances of lights being on which later go unacknowledged David pondering who could have called him at work built suspense that never went anywhere and then David wondering for paragraphs who could have been in his apartment Ummm We all knew and yet he needed to ponder something that so clearly was his biggest fear David s Mother I hope this woman is enjoying hell What she did was inexcusable And finally, David I fell hard for this sweet guy But at a certain point I become aggravated I mean what could he have possibly done This is so drawn out that you just feel it should be something really terrible and yet when it is finally revealed, it didn t hold the impact it should have I think ifhad been told earlier, it would have helped me understand this character on another level Instead I just began to pull away and lose the connection I had to him Maybe I am being over critical But as a reader too many things just felt off Felt disjointed I mean I loved these two guys and felt the heart the Author poured into them But much of becoming a successful author is about not only writing great scenes but learning to weave that writing into a compelling and telling story And when storylines get introduced, even side ones, they must be seen through completely Again, I have ZERO doubts as to this Author s abilities and I see this first novel as a stepping stone to greatness He just needs to learn to structure his scenes and moments in a way that can bring those beautiful words into a cohesive story I look forward to seeingfrom this Author and how he continues to grow in his talent


  6. Alona Alona says:

    2.5 stars.I ll start with the good The writing is wonderful and I think the author, which this is his first full book, has an amazing potential The not so good Mostly, it was a big case of been there, done that the shy and timid boy he feltlike a teen than a man in his mid late twenties with a dark past, the big strong and masculine man who swoops in to save him.The lack of character development I didn t feel their connection I was told about their instant chemistry, but I didn t 2.5 stars.I ll start with the good The writing is wonderful and I think the author, which this is his first full book, has an amazing potential The not so good Mostly, it was a big case of been there, done that the shy and timid boy he feltlike a teen than a man in his mid late twenties with a dark past, the big strong and masculine man who swoops in to save him.The lack of character development I didn t feel their connection I was told about their instant chemistry, but I didn t feel it Same goes to the secondary characters, with no depth or even understanding what their roll in the story might be, some of them felt quit redundant to me.The ending was way too dramatic, and the epilogue was way too happy and sweet with a pink ribbon to tie everything up way too easy and quickly.It s weird to say, and I feel uneasy saying it, but the author build up the secret abuse part so much that I thought David went through something wayhorrible when I found out what it was I was like view spoiler when he told his story I was sure that his brother died on the way to school when he left him to go by himself hide spoiler To sum it all up I ll definitely try this author again thank you Kael for the introduction xox , but this one was not as good as I expected


  7. Rohit Rohit says:

    DNF 75%I have many things to say regarding this but one thing I m sure of is that this novel is a perfect 2 star for me.First, the writer has some morphed fetish with masculinity Even in 2017, writing army characters and using superhero props, Adam has some fucked up traction when it comes to masculine ideas and masculine behaviour The thing is, when you write a romance of queer characters, your words matter They matter a lot and while many issues have been well and gently handled, the queern DNF 75%I have many things to say regarding this but one thing I m sure of is that this novel is a perfect 2 star for me.First, the writer has some morphed fetish with masculinity Even in 2017, writing army characters and using superhero props, Adam has some fucked up traction when it comes to masculine ideas and masculine behaviour The thing is, when you write a romance of queer characters, your words matter They matter a lot and while many issues have been well and gently handled, the queerness is kept again on the down low Like something Adam has passively been shy of not hiding exactly but not really found it empowering in a sense His views from about a porn stash of a 13 year old boy and girly behaviour not once but many many times got on my nerves I felt really bad when Adam turned weird when it came to feminine hands on a boy Dude its perfectly fine for a boy to have feminine hands That whole part is just something which actually undermines the whole struggle of opening people s minds about only two genders and two sexualities I think the writer has yet to learn about the relevance of each letter in LGBTQ Including the mind you That said, after all these pin pricks you can call them, I felt that I read the whole novel as a charade With some really great mushy writing It s so cheesy and flow y at times that you d feel the time go by fast But my last straw was exactly that The story was at a pivotal point where a threat is looming upon one of the characters and after a heart to heart, guess what happens A virgin cherry popping Yay So I didn t even get to read the buggery because I was legit scared for an attack coming anytime through the doors While they were making love with some unnaturally copious amount of precum Maybe it worked out as lube for the author but it sure ain t helping us gays out here This novel has precum in abundance actually And great cover btw


  8. Diverse Diverse says:

    First thing I ll say about Looking In by Michael bailey in that I m shocked this is a debut novel He writes with a confident ease The common first time author errors are almost non existent I would have assumed he d been writing for years So, let that calm your oh dear a new author worries.This book is so realistically written it almost reads like a biography Adam is a former Marine who s homecoming is bittersweet when it s announced his nephew has been diagnosed with leukemia Now, to k First thing I ll say about Looking In by Michael bailey in that I m shocked this is a debut novel He writes with a confident ease The common first time author errors are almost non existent I would have assumed he d been writing for years So, let that calm your oh dear a new author worries.This book is so realistically written it almost reads like a biography Adam is a former Marine who s homecoming is bittersweet when it s announced his nephew has been diagnosed with leukemia Now, to know Adam is to know how huge his heart is, how strong his arm are and will embrace, love, and protect you And to know how bright and shiny his personality is He s unique and you instantly love him When he decided he will make his nephew s time in the hospital as fun as possible you feel that determination and so enters David.Adam was born for this man That s the bare bones of it David is an uber geek and in that aspect he felt like a kindred spirit for me But David is broken Shattered by a past that he has no control over Without giving spoilers I ll simply say, David is a child abuse survivor I won t saybut its molded him into the depressed, untrusting person he is.When Adam sweeps into his life to make his nephew s life better, he s making David s life better too.Angst yes Emotional Yes Hopeful, beautiful, and unforgettable Absolutely This debut novel was a breath stealing surprise that I will not soon forget I highly recommend this book


  9. Lissa Lissa says:

    Why hello there, lovely book that I accidentally stumbled upon thanks to a Facebook recommendation group I d read several books that were just a little too sweet for me, and I needed a book with a dose of angst to reset my reading equilibrium And this book reached out and punched me right in the feels.Adam is a former Marine who returns to his hometown of Toledo, Ohio and the book is set in Ohio YAY just in time to find out that his brother s only son has leukemia Determined to make his n Why hello there, lovely book that I accidentally stumbled upon thanks to a Facebook recommendation group I d read several books that were just a little too sweet for me, and I needed a book with a dose of angst to reset my reading equilibrium And this book reached out and punched me right in the feels.Adam is a former Marine who returns to his hometown of Toledo, Ohio and the book is set in Ohio YAY just in time to find out that his brother s only son has leukemia Determined to make his nephew s hospital stay a little brighter, he stops by the local comic book shop to pick up something for the kid and literally runs into David, an employee at the shop.David has a lot of demons that he s been battling since he was a kid, although the exact nature of those demons are under wraps for much of the story He s convinced that not only is he unlovable, but no one wants to be his friend or generally interact with him at all He s twenty eight years old and has never been kissed,or less determined to wall himself off from humankind and keep everyone at a distance Trusting someone, he has learned, is the first step on the path to disaster, and he s faced enough of those in his lifetime But Adam, who kind of reminds me of a human version of a Labrador dog sweet, protective, and persistent , isn t about to let the adorkable comic book shop guy leave so easily.Let me start out by saying that Adam and David are perfect for one another Adam is incredibly sweet and has a strong protective streak, and that meshes so well with David, who needs someone to pull him out of his shell and be patient with him as he explores uncharted territory Every trough in David s personality was matched with a crest in Adam s, and vice versa I loved how unapologetically nerdy David was As a fellow homodork, I appreciated it so much And Adam actually felt like this was an asset and David didn t have to go around apologizing for liking comics or trying to convince anyone that he s actually an adult YESSSS I loved it I already squeed a little about the book being set in Ohio originally from, although from the southeastern side of Ohio myself , and you definitely get a feel of Toledo here And the angst, because let s be honest, that was my main motivation for reading this book at this time It was good There was a lot of shit that David had to work through in his mind, and he did There wasn t an instafix for him, and there shouldn t be Being in a relationship with Adam definitely helped him, but he still had a lot of worries and frustrations and issues and that is how it should be too Having a supportive relationship helps, but it definitely doesn t fix everything from day one, and I really liked watching how David grew as a character here view spoiler David s life is seriously fucked up his dad beat him to the point that he felt like his only option was to try to commit suicide When he woke up in the hospital, he eventually came clean and told the police officers what had really happened to him, which resulted in his father being arrested and locked up for fifteen years for child abuse His father gets out and blames David for him being in prison because obviously beating a child black and blue with a belt isn t his fault Ugh Abusers are such assholes and wants to get even with him hide spoiler I justreally identified with David So, so much Painfully so, at times I may have cried while reading this book My backstory may not be the same as his, butit s on the same plane, shall we say And that is why I think I read angsty romances They make me deal with my own shit and see things from different perspectives, and I know no matter how low the characters get, there s going to be a happy ending for them It s cheaper than therapy So, in short, I enjoyed this book immensely I laughed, I may have cried a bit, and I walked away with a serious case of the warm fuzzies And this is the author s first book O Well hot damn, moar please And I read it all in one sitting to boot


  10. Lisa Cullinan Lisa Cullinan says:

    Great first effort Looking In has been sitting in my iPad s Kindle app for quite some time now, and I m so glad that I finally decided to read it.For Michael Bailey s first novel, he sure does a great job creating two characters who are so deserving of each other.The story was quite heart wrenching at times, and I found myself easily tearing up from the loneliness and inadequacy felt by David for over half his life Thank god Adam, his knight in shining armor, becomes a part of David s life and Great first effort Looking In has been sitting in my iPad s Kindle app for quite some time now, and I m so glad that I finally decided to read it.For Michael Bailey s first novel, he sure does a great job creating two characters who are so deserving of each other.The story was quite heart wrenching at times, and I found myself easily tearing up from the loneliness and inadequacy felt by David for over half his life Thank god Adam, his knight in shining armor, becomes a part of David s life and rescues him from getting stuck in his own head I love how Adam knows exactly what s going on with David and can immediately pull him away from the demons still lurking around from his past.I feel this book could have been so much better ifattention was spent following through certain areas Where did Greg s brother go Why wouldn t Lucas s mom show up the second her son became ill The storyline could have used a bitcharacter development, which would have turned a good, solid story into a great one Onevery important issue proper editing It s the most crucial requirement for a book s success I had a rough time getting past sentence fragments, lack of or improper use of punctuation, and some misspelled words That being said, I still found myself highlighting one passage after another that took my breath away.My intentions are meant to be supportive and constructive because I have no doubt that Michael Bailey s writing will only get better with each new release I would recommend this one because, in the end, this story is beautiful and heartfelt, leaving me wanting


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